Sunday, November 16, 2008

Why am I here???

I just quit my full time job that I thought I loved very much about 2 months ago to be a Stay at home mom. This stay at home job is not new to me, however I tried it once before in the past. This time is different and I wonder how many moms struggle the way I have with this decision to work in an office or at home for their families.
Looking back my biggest problem was that I did not view being a homemaker as a job. Before any of you ladies get upset please know I did realize it was hard work, but I felt not the kind that was rewarding and offered promotions and power which is what I thought I was looking for. I had become quite unhappy with my job and was seeking any promotion that I could see as remotely possible. I felt I had to find something that gave me that feeling of success again. After much debate and some family reasons which I will discuss in another blog I decided to take the plunge. It was emotional to say the least. (It didn't help that I was pregnant either!) I had a great mentor that encouraged me to think it over and be sure about my decision to leave work. While I felt confident I still cried my eyes out several times in his office. It was hard! I was leaving a place that I had convinced myself I belonged. But in my heart I knew God was prompting me to leave work. It was one of the best decisions I have made so far.
You may be wondering if I regret having working for several years of my children's lives. The answer is honestly no. I was not ready before, not mentally or physically ready to be home. I have now learned the value in being home for and with my family. I feel success in accomplishing my daily routine, in watching my children learn, and in having extra time to connect with friends and build lifetime relationships. A new peace has come over my life and while I am still trying to figure many things out, I have to say I have found the best job on earth. I may not be earning an earthly paycheck, but the rewards and benefits that motherhood provides are not measurable!